Airplanes

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky, like shooting stars? I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now...

I can't sleep.

I've grown up a lot, I think - and have grown from all of my past experiences.  However this still sucks, even a week later.  It's difficult moving on when you were so... smitten with someone. Yea, we'll use the word smitten.  It's hard going from every day hearing a voice, listening to them sing that song and hearing certain words to... nothing.  And not just nothing, but trying to understand how something could flip so quickly then seem like it just never happened, like there never was someone that looked at you in that certain way.


It's kind of like... there's a box that held so many valuable trinkets.  And one day when you open that box, it's empty.  Magic. Gone.  And you're left scratching your head trying to make sense of it.  Or maybe when you've misplaced your keys; you could have sworn they were on the table, but when you go to look for them they're not there.

At least I took that chance? Took a leap of faith? I don't know.

I'm babbling.

Maybe tomorrow I'll do laundry and spend some time in the library working.  Ugh. Laundy.... I hate folding.

Smoke

Oh look, it's summer - and the valley is filled with smoke from god knows where...


Did some work, ate dinner and now I'm bored.  I should really go out and try to be social but I'm just... I don't know. Unmotivated and feeling like a hermit.  Well, not a hermit - my "social calendar" this summer hasn't been a vacant blob of vacant, but there's no one in Kelowna to hang out with consistantly. Eff, hermit.

Bored. Yup. Bored. Just spent the last five minutes staring at the wall.  Awesome.